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Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
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weird isnt it.
me....coming soon
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Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
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well here i am again, popped in to see how things are. good? good? me2. im actually just killing some time, im waiting for jasmine to call me. for those of you who dont know jasmine, we went out before...twice. not 2 dates, two separate....periods of time... i fucked things up royaly the first time (which we shall never get into again), ended on alrite terms the second, and now heres hoping for a 3rd.
well i was checkin my older posts, and i decided to see what i was doing, this time last year. i posted this exactly a year ago, give or take a couple of hours.
"i spent pretty much every day this weekend with alfonzo. we did soo much, yet we did nothing. thats the recipe for contentness. well i dont know if it is or not, but im content."
those were the good days, no work, no wories, nothing
its been a while since something like that has happened.
but im stil content.
its insane how much ive changed since i posted that.
-first of all, i dont remember the last time i called fonz 'alfonzo'
-little did i know this time last year, i was about to ender what i like to call, 'the months of hell' i call it that because...it was as close to hell as i know.
you know how sometimes experiences change people...well those next couple months DEFINATELY changed me. im a completely different person then i was back then. ive been desensitized from almost everything. i use to be such an emotional person, now you'll be lucky if i dont hit you with a sarcastic comment. no more patience for that shit.
actually, i broke up with a girl steph a week ago or so...she wanted me to be more emotional...BUN DAT
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Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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"old enough to know better....young enough to do it again"
shit, everyones growing up around me, im gona be 20 this year! where the hell did that come from. i keep getting the lecture..."your 19 you should have stopped playing video games 4 years ago"...i care not for these things...
growing up is overrated.
im counting down the days till i leave for borden. i cant wait to get out of this stinkin place for 2 months.
im gona drink..
im gona smoke..
im gona drink and smoke at the same time...
well its actually about 30 minutes after i wrote the previous line, i think im jus gona go to bed...
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nacci jono when you do something you go all the way.
me hey, when i do something i dont do it half assed.
well its almost 5, and im fuckin wired....thnx fonz. he woke me up at two, and me, fonz and jan reached timms for some late night chillage. it was fun, jans a blast. fo....hes cool too.
on wednesday kierce and nacci came over, we ran some xbox, and did some chillin, then we head out to honest lawyer for some drinks and pool. nacci thought he was a trooper, but i showed him whats what... nacci, you've got some ways to go.
pool is my new obsession...but, i need a challenge... anyone wanna go shoot some pool?? ne one?...ne one?
i was just thinking about something fonz once said.."jono, if you were white, you'd be a god." he was referring to me and pool, and bowling, and halo... well, it may be true.... fuck you fonz, i AM a god.
on a side note, last saturday was a good friend of mines birthday, i couldnt make it, due to complications, and i feel really bad, i just wanted to say sorry, happy be-lated birthday, ill definately make it up to you.
-im bored with life
-i need a change of pace
-im wired right now
-i need to play pool
but seriously...pool?? ne one?
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Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
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well, i pretty much spent the day alone...studying, and watching t.v.
yea. i have a calc exam tommorow. and im pretty pumped for it.
havent been at work much, got hours cut cuz of crappy weather, so i spend my days lazying around...like some..sorta...lazing..around...thing.
oh...yesterday i wanted to post a picture of my girlfriend..but i was retarded and did it wrong...so here it is...(cross your fingers)
YAY. I talked to packo today. sorry i had to split...ill probubally be calling you back in about....5 minutes...while im out havin a shmoke. as little as it was...it brightened up my day.
p.s. your ass better pick up tha phone...ass.
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well, i pretty much spent the day alone...studying, and watching t.v.
yea. i have a calc exam tommorow. and im pretty pumped for it.
havent been at work much, got hours cut cuz of crappy weather, so i spend my days lazying around...like some..sorta...lazing..around...thing.
oh...yesterday i wanted to post a picture of my girlfriend..but i was retarded and did it wrong...so here it is...(cross your fingers)
YAY. I talked to packo today. sorry i had to split...ill probubally be calling you back in about....5 minutes...while im out havin a shmoke. as little as it was...it brightened up my day.
p.s. your ass better pick up tha phone...ass.
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well, it has been a while since i posted.
-i dont know why it took so long for me to write something...maybe i had nothing to say, maybe i didnt have enough time...maybe i was lazy...
a couple things have changed. um. i now have a girlfriend, alishia. it was kinda random, and outta the blue. but shes great.
all in all im content. i havent been able to say that for a while. but i really am.
the only thing that bothers me, is that the increasing time spent away from friends is really getting to me. i havent seen packo since before newyears. its balls.
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Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
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The closer you are to freedom, the farther it gets.
I think im driftin, from everyone that means something to me. I barely see anyone any more, yet im not doing anything. Shit happens. I hate winter. I blame winter. Honestly…winter?…fuck it.
Haha…went through the entire Christmas break, and I am still hung up on the idea of a brown girl. Im talking to another one, what is that the 3rd in less then 4 months? But then again…that’s all it is..talk….and talk is cheap.
Ive been chillin with my boy from work (calen) a lot lately. Its pretty chillin, hes …different, and not that kinda different. Hes more of a man slut then brove. And that’s a pretty big man slut. But its been chillin, we always go to bars…and we ALWAYS pick up ladies…..but this one time…it was all me ;)
I fuckin hate work, im not getin a raise, im getin my hours cut, and…well… its just shit. So me and 3 others talked, and if we don’t get our raise, were all gona quit. Right at the same time. That will leave him with his beloved full timer..Aubrey…fuckin jewish bastard. Im not a very violent guy, but I just wanna fuckin take a bat to his head. And dance in the left overs…
GAWD.
Well my schedule use to be, sleep, wake up, work, sleep.
Now my schedule is……..sleep, wake up,…sleep.
Fuck im soo random today.
p.s fefe rules
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Monday, December 1st, 2003
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i tried hard to make it, i just wanna make you proud, im never gona be good enough for you
all my life, ive lived in my older sisters foot steps. she did something...i would try it, but was never good enough...piano...karate...even school. i love my sister, and were really close, but it just pisses me off sometimes. and whats worse, my father looked at it as me failing. he couldnt get it in his head that we're two different people.
after i came back from army this summer, i told him i wasnt going to university this year, and he FLIPPED OUT. i think thats when i cracked, i couldnt take it any more. i didnt know what came over me, and i found myself swearing and screaming at him. after that, i couldnt look at him...so i left. and after 18 years of living with him, i moved out, and in with my mom. i thought it was completely over for us.
i tried not to think, about the pain i feel inside. did you know you used to be my hero... all the days you spent with me, now seem so far away, and it feels like you dont care anymore.
whats your point? you ask...
well, yesterday, it was the first time i pretty much saw him since august. my sister and my cousin were there, so it wasnt that awkard, but overall, it was a good time...it was like nothing had happened, no time had passed at all. he made fun of me about my earings, i made fun of him about his age. i think he was really sorry about pushing me away.
i conned him into coming and buying some shoes at my store. he offered to pay my car insurance, and hes asking me about school and stuff, and offered to pay for it...(i know money doesnt make up for anything, but its nice to know he cares). and then to top it off, he starts walking upstairs, and says, 'hang on, i have something for you'. he comes back and hands me an envelope. i opened it and almost started balling...literally, it was a chain my grandma left for me before she died in july. i saw her wear it all the time. its good to know i now have a part of her with me all the time...(hope i dont lose it). well all in all, everything went well. im glad.
im glad im not perfect
p.s. my dad thinks im gay...WTF IS GOING ON?!?!?!?!?!?
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Sunday, November 30th, 2003
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can anyone tell me why msn isnt working??? balls to you bill gates....balls to you...
id just like to say...the bizkit/korn concert, was fuckinggggggggggggggg dope... soo much fun was had....
really, i dont think i have anything to write about...sure if i think really hard, (without hurting myself) i could come up with something... but off the top of my head...nothing... what does THAT mean?
im really tired right now actually...ill give you a good post tommorow..hopefully, less im doing 'something' :I
peace.
p.s. i think that if i spend anymore time with patrick....we'd be common law...
not today patty...not today.
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Wednesday, November 19th, 2003
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"the more you suffer, the more it shows you really care",
im actually really bored with my life. ya, i got the car, ya i go out pretty much nightly, but, that only goes soo far. i wake up everyday, go through the same motions.
-wake up
-brush my teeth
-take a shower
-go to work
-come home
-either sit at my computer and talk to melissa, or go out.
its the same ol' shit every day, every week, every month. i mean, working in a shoe store is fun...but its still a shoe store.
i was thinking today, while i was doing nothing....i need to have some goals. so i made a list.
1.save atleast 700 dollars a month
2.join a gym.
3.(adding to the gym thing, im gona start using creatine)
4.actually doing my calc homework.
5.get a new job.
6.try not to go out every night.(also saving some money)
7.quit smoking (but for real this time)
8.get a g.d. girlfriend....oh gawd.
9.stop being a larsh bag.
10.try to spend less time on the computer (yah...ok cause thats happening)
other than that....everythings all well.
i reached jade on saturday...had a fuckin awsome time. ive come to the conclusion that i dont enjoy being drunk at clubs...i actually like just dancing. thats one more place i wont get drunk any more... so now its pretty much just at home with some friends, or other friends homes.
havent seen patrizzack in 3 days...it feels like soo much longer...gawd.
were reaching steam nightclub on saturday, it should be fun, but its like a high class dress club. so thursday im going shopping for clothes...someone palease come shopping with me...i hate getting clothes by myself.
saturday, i went and got 2 more piercings in my ears...(im kickin your ass patrick). i got kinda bored with the way i looked, i needed a slight change...it looks pretty good, except for the fact that i have 2 silver hoops, and 2 gold studs. but ill change it.
im soo tired, i hafta work tommorow morning...my asshole of a manager is cutting my hours, for some reason, he felt the need to higher a full time cocky mother fucking asshole. and so now everyone elses hours are getting cut. even though im kicking everyones asses in sales, i pretty much hold every record in the store...im soo gona look for a new job, that'll teach him good. ass.
well, ive said pretty much everything...actually not even close, but im geting kinda tired,
im goin to sleep.
oh btw patrick...i sucked ass in bowling tonight....but i still won..25 bucks...boo on you. ;)
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Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
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Its alright, to tell, me what you think, about me
I wont try, to argue, or hold it, against you
I know that, your leaving, you must have, your reasons
This season, is calling, your pictures, are falling down
The steps that, I retraced, the sad look, on your face.
The timing, in structure, did you hear, he fucked her.
A day late, a buck short, at writing, the report.
On losing, and failing, when I move, im flailing, now.
And its happened once again, ill turn to a friend, some one that understands, sticks to the master plan, but everybody’s gone, and ive been here for too long, to face this on my own…well I guess this is growing up.
And maybe ill see you at a movie sneak preview.
you show up, and walk by, only your, with that guy
And ill smile and you’ll wave, we’ll pretend its ok.
Its alright, it wont last, when hes gone… I wont come back.
And itl happen once again, you’ll turn to a friend, some one that understands, and sees through the master plan, but everybody’s gone, and you’ve been here for too long, to face this on your own…well I guess this is growing up.
Well I guess this is growing up.
its crazy the ammount ive changed since gr.9 in highschool.
-i out grew most people
-i moved
twice.
-made many friends
-lost some friends
-lectured people about the bad parts of smoking...
-started smoking
-dated a few girls
-turned one lesbian
-shaved my head
-pierced my ears and body
-got a tatoo.
-went to a concert
next year, im gona be twenty...im already scared as hell
i guess you can say...im going through a "quarter-life crisis"....patrick gets the joke.
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Sunday, November 9th, 2003
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i just got back from a nite with diggy and fo...patrick was supposed to come, but due to complications... he didnt.
yea so i went to some humber party with diggy and fonz, that brown girl i went out with a couple of times was there.. and so was her boyfriend....yea. got down, was gona try and play it off like i didnt care, (even though i fully did) when she came up to dignum gave him a hug, then diggy showed her that i was there, and she literally, fuckin jumped on me. needless to say... she was drunk. we talked for a little, then fonzm diggy, some random girl named jenny, and i sat down for a shot of tequila. and whadda ya know... the brown girl(from hence forth, she will be called stephanie) pulled up a chair, and sat right next to me, and made me try her drink, while very non-chalently putting her leg on mine.so we took our shot, then she proceeded to COMPLETELY unbotton my shirt, why? i have no idea. she left for a bit. i ordered a beer, i saw her getting all close with this guy but not actually kissing him or anything, i at the time didnt know it was her boyfriend....WHAT A LOSER...sorry. she i kinda ignored it. a few minutes later, she came back and literally walked passed everyone, and pretty much fell onto me, and whispered something in my ear .. "**** ******* **** ** ****** ****" i thought it was kinda funnie, but thats just me. ( by the way, the *'s are actual letters") . yea.. what the fuck is up with that?? can someone please fricken explain???
i found out today...im not that bad in pool.
according to fonz, i should be white...sometimes i can see it...but alas...im brown, SO DEAL WITH IT ;)
im like crazy tired, i worked 21 hours in 2 days.
im going to sleep... 1.2.3 hollah back.
oh yea... lets go bowling...i rule;)
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Friday, November 7th, 2003
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well just got home. after a sorta, long day.
this last week or two has been pretty eventful:
saturday, visited tessar in oakvizzle, with patrick. met up with him and mel, had some good laughs over pizza sub, then went and played pool. i had patrick on my team, so naturally i was handicapped ;) (all love). played 1 on 1 with tessar, cause he was talkin smack....i smoked him. (all love). i myself, thought the night was over, but we ended up at bowling. proceeded to kick the crap outta everyone, especially patrick...cause he was talkin smack..(all love). and i bowled a whopping 169!!
did a whole bunch more bowling this week, pretty typical.
wednesday, saw matrix with patrick, then proceeded downtown with him to catch the john mayer concert...FUCKIN AWSOME. thats all i can say about that.
today, i reached down town with patrick again..(wow im spending alot of time with patrick). met up with rachenne and erin. got some coffe, then i was introduced to krystina (i hope i spelled that right). she was AWSOME. we went to the...uh monk center...that was hot, but i had to bounce at about 3 45, cause i had to pick up mommsy.
gave rachenne a ride home, it was fun, we got lost, then found our way. apparently you cant make right turns during rush hour...HAHA.
I HATE DRIVING DOWNTOWN. i guarentee i will never do that again.
went to nightschool, a brown girl in my class was hitting on me.. or.. was hitting on me to help her with her calc... any whoo, i found out she literally lives 45 seconds from me. hmmmm...
got home, then left for tristas, it was fun, michelle, mike trist, tre, diggy and cheong were there. good times were had, and now im home.
on another note, things with the brown girl, fell through, i was upset, but not THAT upset. but im goin to daves this saturday with an old (not that old) friend. it should be a good time.
and.......im done.
man i like the black eyed peas.
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Wednesday, October 29th, 2003
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-got some upsetting news today.
-tanked my calc test.
-called patrick
-left patrick a message
-patrick you didnt call me back
-talked to fonz
-went to timms with fonz
-just got back from timms with fonz
-i love fonz
-i really really do
-did i mention how much i love fonz
-fonz made me feel a whole lot better...i love him.
but i still feel kinda shitty.
its funny how one thing can bring you soo far down.
im turning...to the dark side... uhhhhhhhhh
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Monday, October 20th, 2003
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one bad apple dont spoil the whole bunch girl"
ive been reading alot of peoples journals, and alot of people are mad or upset or sad or something else like that. cheer up buds, the sun will come out tommorow.
i on the other hand, am as happy as a pig in shit, this is actually the first time everything has been going good for me in a while. my last post, u know the big letterd one, it was about me getting my g2. so naturally thats a good thing. ive been driving around like a beast, drove mario, fonz, and dane so far... and some people from work.
and on a plus note, yesterday, i went out on my first date since...well a really long time. i took this girl stephanie out to tha movies. DONT GO SEE TEXAS CHAIN SAW MASSACRE. it is the worst movie. shout out to diggy for hooking us up. you know, its about time i get a wholesome brown girl in my life. yea, so were probubally going out again sometime soon, apparently all went well, and she had a really good time.
AND SHE LIKES BROWN FOOD. so its all good.
after i dropped her home last night, i was driving down hwy 7. and i passed daves. and i thought to my self, hrmn...ALFO. and so i called his house, emi told me he was working, and i told her that id bring him home. so it worked out for everyone, fonz got to see me, emi didnt have to leave her house, and i got to see fonz. sat at the bar for about 40 min, had a coke. barely talked with fonz till he got off work. BUT! i saw the lucky girl who gave fonz her number. LL <---my attempt at two thumbs up, use your imagination.
workin 40 some odd ours this week, im a champ.
FONZ'S birthday this friday, what ever are we doing?
the only thing hotter then a brown girl... is a brown girl with a gamecube...
the only thing hotter then a brown girl with a gamecube...is a brown girl with an x-box. but HEY, im not fuckin picky. ;)
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Thursday, October 16th, 2003
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OH GAWD ITS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
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All you need is love is a lie.
we had love but we still said goodbye.
-john mayer
yea i know im white. or as it was more correctly put by tessar, im kinda like a klondike bar. brown on the outside and white on the inside. i just finished watching the lion king, for the 6th time this week. i cant get enough of that movie... for a lion, nalas pretty hot. (yea im a loser)
on a random note, i got melissa (who currently resides in england) hooked on livejournal, even though she denies it. she too is a klondike bar..... "dirty marshmellos? what am i fuckin einstein" haha im such a character.
sunday night, i really didnt have nething to do, dru couldnt come over cuz his mom wanted him home, so i didnt do anything. i called the regular...patrick just to see whats goin on, but for some reason his ass doesnt answer his phone anymore. so i rang up tessar, i accidently woke him up from a nap, which was good for both of us, cuz he wanted to wake up, and i called. i knew i missed chillin with him and talkin to him, but it never occured how much, until we actually talked. he was the first actual friend i had at carter, and throughout the years probubally accumulated more jono time then anyone. we talked for about an hour and a half i didnt really keep track of the time, and by the end it was like i saw him the day before. but we both agreed that we had to reach a club next time, im treatin him. its just been too long since we did anything together, and plus no one can jam like we can, the party dont stop till 6 in da mornin.
on friday i met up with nacci cheong and pizzzzzzzzzzzatrick. it was nice cause it had infact been a while since i even saw cheong. we went and played some pool, (naturally i smoked all)(sorry nacci). and then we proceeded to drop everyone home, dispite the fact that i live the closest to cheong, and to the place we were playing pool, i told him to drop me off last, just so he could have some company, on the trek back from naccis. you KNOW that when you get me cheong and patrick in the car together there is one topic that will undoubtedly come up, and ... it did. but alas all was well. after some bonding we continued to scream some jon bon at the TOP of our lungs.
well im fuckin <--(wow second swear word of the post)tired. so im going to sleep, cause, well, honestly, what else have i got to do.
p.s. fonz im glad im so easily replaced. no no go on, enjoy.
and that my friends is why i now have a lazy eye.
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Friday, October 10th, 2003
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"what was that for?"
"doesnt matta, it was in the past"
"yea but it still hurts"
"ah the past can hurt, but the way i see it
is you can run from it... or learn from it"-the lion king
[Its fuckin 4:30 and i cant fuckin sleep, its too hot, or too cold, and im soo gawd damn thirsty. oh and who knows where the quote on my subject is from?]
i regret alot of things ive done in the past, some people say that regretting things is a waste of time. i give those people the finger. however, just because i regret them, doesnt mean i was wrong. somethings ive done, though the outcome wasnt the greatest for me, if given the chance to redo them i would do them the exact same way.
i chilled with patrick today, and he helped me realiz alot of things that really havent crossed my mind in a while. certain things i do, which really have no merrit. and ive come to the conclusion, that we have soo much hate. oh soo much.
nightschool was a hoot. sharing stories of drunkeness, when iwas supposed to be doing calculus is always great.
ive cut back on smoking alot, but i need to quit quit. it hurts now, i feel like such an old man, coughing up a lung.
i picked up the new luda cd. titled. "beer n' chicken" its pretty fricken hot, and has some funnie interludes.
i also bought a 300$ jacket. god damn patrick is rubbing off on me.
on another note, theres a girl, a brown girl, hopefully. wish me luck. but i think i just jinxed it.
yea, what? shut up.
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Sunday, September 28th, 2003
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well. i know its been a while. but i finally brought myself to write a bit...
let me be the first (not really) to welcome fonz to the lj neighbourhood.
as patrick wrote a while ago i did indeed get my nipple pierced. oh it hurt like a son of a bitch.
on a random note, im watching breaker high. and ashleigh <-----oh gawd look how i spelled ashley but anyway, Ashley was jerking Alex around... and i thought hrmmm.... ;) oh how t.v reflects our lives.
i went to mcmaster on friday with burger...met up with chris mario and michelle. had a few drinks, hahaa told mario toget michelle a praire fire... (shot of taquila and tabasco) ahahaha she fuckin died...good times. walked back to chris' dorm in the rain for about 50 minutes, and then had the longest spoon train ever... got to sleep at 6, woke up at 9 and was supposed to leave at 9 :30 but left at 10 because chris has no concept of hurrying his little ol' ass up. i just barely made it to work on time....worked all day then went home
saturday night was the york jam. OH MY FUCKIN LORD. ive never seen so many hot brown girls in one place....well soo many brown people for that matter. but they reallie were smokin. i think i found my soulmate. (and i use that term extremely loosely). there was this one girl, dancing.. soo hot, we kept making eye contact. it was hot.. but did i go over and talk to her?? nawh,.. why? ... because im me.ya..exactly.
on another random note... Alex just puncked Ashley...YES FONZ. he did what we couldnt.
alrighty. im out like a scout.
workin in 10 hours...hollah
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calm.
sleepy.
awake.
accomplished.
pissed off.
scared.
confused.
disappointed.
excited.
tired.
thirsty.
full.